I have never actually 'known' known
and even though my friend, E, did
kill her husband...
in talking to her..after the fact..she says she
couldn't even remember getting the gun or pulling the trigger..
I've only been in that state of mind once or twice in
where I didn't know what was going on in my own 'present'..
and that was in the days immediately following the
loss of my husband.
I was 'there' but I wasn't.
Apparently that is what was going on with E...but to think
that 'losing' it for one brief moment..can change
EVERYTHING in your life forever...
I just can't imagine it.
I 'almost' understand a fight that goes bad...
like Dave and Kenny experienced...
but hey...what started out a horrible accident gone bad...
ended up an 'unthinkable' cover up attempt..
that I don't understand.
But...to take life for 'sport'
in Danny's case..
goes so far beyond my comprehension..
I'm pretty sure I'll NEVER get that..
nor do I want to.
I've come to understand that
'there are really no "safe" places'.
I don't let my grandkids play out in my yard, without adult
supervision..at ANY time of day.
I won't 'let' any of my adult children work in overnight
(though that has never been seriously considered by any of them).
I'm not frightened by things that may or may not
happen...heck, I live in 'tornado alley'
but I don't live in fear of tornadoes.
Of course, I do pay attention to the warnings...
which is why my grandkids don't play outside unsupervised..
and my kids don't work in convenience stores.